A-Z Challenge - V

V ... for vulnerability.

I had had a lump on my neck 10 years ago.  It was located about four fingers' spacing below my left ear.  It was small in the beginning when I asked my doctor to take a look.  She was not alarmed and said it looks like a lump of fat and if I wanted to, I could have it removed.  If not, I should keep an eye on it and take immediate action should it grow bigger.  As I was not so keen on an operation, I therefore chose not to have it removed then.

Around the 8th year I noticed that the lump had grown bigger and much noticeable.  Whenever I had a hair cut, the hairdresser would always ask me about it.   My relatives were also questioning me about it.  I was getting sick and tired of explaining to everybody that I finally made a decision to have it removed.  A date for the operation was fixed on December 30, 2010.

There I was, lying on the operation table with just a paper panty and a hospital gown to my name, wires attached to some parts of my body.  I was shivering cold while waiting to be sedated.  The last thing I remember before succumbing to the anesthetic, the nurses turned on some hot air blower to warm me up. 

Never have I felt so vulnerable.  Helpless.  Lying on the operation table, I was at the surgeon and his assistants' mercy.  I can't run away as I was attached to all those wires.  It had to be done.  If not now ...  when?   I said a prayer, knowing that I was and always will be in God's Grace and that everything is in His Loving Hands.

Fortunately, the operation was successful, or I won't be here writing about it!.  He he!  The biopsy showed that it was not malignant.  It was just a piece of fat tissue.  The condition is called neck lipoma. The surgeon showed me a photo of it from his handphone.  It looked like some yellowish-orange colored flower.  It's amazing how something that could put fear in my heart could appear so beautiful! 
 
This is the letter V for the A-Z Blogging Challenge.

Looks like I will be late in posting these last few alphabets for the challenge as the internet is down at work. 

Before I go, let's join Dana at Pure for her Wednesday Photo Inspriation.

Image from Wendy Brightbill at agirlandherbrush.

Do visit Wendy and take a look at her other beautiful works of art.

See you tomorrow.  Have a beautiful day!  Let hope live in your heart.