V ... for vulnerability.
I had had a lump on my neck 10 years ago. It was located about four fingers' spacing below my left ear. It was small in the beginning when I asked my doctor to take a look. She was not alarmed and said it looks like a lump of fat and if I wanted to, I could have it removed. If not, I should keep an eye on it and take immediate action should it grow bigger. As I was not so keen on an operation, I therefore chose not to have it removed then.
Around the 8th year I noticed that the lump had grown bigger and much noticeable. Whenever I had a hair cut, the hairdresser would always ask me about it. My relatives were also questioning me about it. I was getting sick and tired of explaining to everybody that I finally made a decision to have it removed. A date for the operation was fixed on December 30, 2010.
There I was, lying on the operation table with just a paper panty and a hospital gown to my name, wires attached to some parts of my body. I was shivering cold while waiting to be sedated. The last thing I remember before succumbing to the anesthetic, the nurses turned on some hot air blower to warm me up.
Never have I felt so vulnerable. Helpless. Lying on the operation table, I was at the surgeon and his assistants' mercy. I can't run away as I was attached to all those wires. It had to be done. If not now ... when? I said a prayer, knowing that I was and always will be in God's Grace and that everything is in His Loving Hands.
Fortunately, the operation was successful, or I won't be here writing about it!. He he! The biopsy showed that it was not malignant. It was just a piece of fat tissue. The condition is called neck lipoma. The surgeon showed me a photo of it from his handphone. It looked like some yellowish-orange colored flower. It's amazing how something that could put fear in my heart could appear so beautiful!
This is the letter V for the A-Z Blogging Challenge.
Looks like I will be late in posting these last few alphabets for the challenge as the internet is down at work.
Before I go, let's join Dana at Pure for her Wednesday Photo Inspriation.
Image from Wendy Brightbill at agirlandherbrush.
Do visit Wendy and take a look at her other beautiful works of art.
See you tomorrow. Have a beautiful day! Let hope live in your heart.